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21.19. Death, the end of dissociation

Then we die. The Ego is stressed, stuck in ideas on autorepeat that don't add up. I am full of illness, anxiety, lack of interest, lack of will.

Everything is thought of before. Everything new is so alien.

It repeats itself, you think.

I know so much more than the other young minds, you think, but they do not know or recognise it.

I don't want this anymore.

I finally understand from where I came. I am no longer afraid. I'm signing out. Forget it.

I'm out of here.

We stop imagining an Ego. That is what death is.

As an infant, you began to experience yourself as a body in a world. As a toddler, you discovered your own «self», or rather: you created an idea of a self, a persona, the Ego.

During your life, you worked intensely to keep this self together and harmonious. You met life's challenges by developing a variety of roles, consciously and unconsciously.

Then you got old and sick. Little new happened.

You began to look more inward than outward.

You finally let go of it all, wanted no more.

You died.

But what died?

Your body is «lifeless». It was burned to ashes or lies under six feet of soil. Very little or nothing is happening that gives you a reason to believe you are still a person wandering around in a notion of a world. Besides, the brain is gone.

You no longer believe in yourself.

Credibility is gone.

You stop dissociating, and then I'm not talking about the dissociations that created the roles you played in life. I'm talking about the dissociation that is the very experience of you – the dissociation from the collective consciousness.

It is he who ceases.

You no longer believe that you are a human being of flesh and blood.

The inner observer, your awareness, your «point of consciousness», has left the notion of a body and a brain.

You, as Elvis, have left the room.

It floats away from the dead matter there in the operating room.

Your consciousness still exists.

You are also conscious while you are dying and after you are dead. What else? Can consciousness cease to exist?

But what you are aware of has changed radically.

You are no longer dissociated; your focus is not on being this one person.

You're back where you were before you were born.

Death is a change of perspective from the individual to the collective.

Death is the opposite of birth, a return. Death is not the opposite of life, for life – pure being with the ability to experience – is the only thing that exists. It exists nowhere and forever because the notion of time and space is within this spirit.

When you «die», the dissociated notion of you ceases. It is replaced by something else, just as the dream takes over when you sleep.

Your conscious identity stops focusing so intensely on the Ego. The masking – the veil that separated intuition and the cognitive brain – is gone.

That which always existed in the background now comes into awareness.

The collective consciousness from which you dissociated. The abstract notion of the universe. The Pattern.

We are approaching the finale of the story.

People with «near-death experiences» consistently tell about an experience of knowing everything, total peace, total love, that everything is in perfect focus simultaneously, etc.

We will discuss this condition in the next chapter, which is about the interaction between the collective and the experienced individual.

And your identity?

Are you still there?

The answer should be yes – for a while.

You have just escaped your notion of a body and a personal identity. You remember well who you are/were, you are exactly as before, but you no longer see and experience «yourself».

It's a little hard to believe in you when your senses and Ego thoughts no longer function. At the same time, what you experience now instead, is a fantastic world theatre where everything happens, everything is known, everything is love.

Who wants to return to a poor body and a slightly sad «life»?

So you probably still remember yourself. You suddenly know and remember everything about this life of yours, now seen from a collective perspective. Everything is equally clear. You can go wherever you want in time and space. Zoom in and out. You get answers to all your questions.

«Why did she go?» you have asked sadly for years.

Now you know. You understand.

You see the necessity and the connections. Maybe the reason was that something else was going to happen in a hundred years – through a powerful dynamic process driven by things you had no idea about – and that you were in the way, i.e. an attractor that was not strong enough to take dominance?

How long was Adam in paradise?

Well? Instead, ask how long Adam «was».

How long did consciousness, the observer who experienced being a person, care about the person «Adam» when paradise lured?

Adam was dissolved in the universal, collective consciousness, but for Adam – we must assume – the experience was of coming home to paradise.

He who dies will see.